After six weeks of tangling, twisting, topsy-turvy, frustrating, exciting, and very implosive crazy colliding pools of thoughts with the rough waves of logic mixed with some fiery experience... I have come out, I believe, better.
What I learned is that I must stop worrying about the future and learn to take things slowly. It is good to think about the future, but I cannot force myself to make a decision when my heart hasn't even made a decision. My good friend taught me that. I am grateful to him for what has happened. He also taught me that I should look out for what I want and put myself first, not others' feelings.
I also realized that I do not want a relationship right now. I'm loving my independence as a single lady. I am going to make as many friends as I can and we will enjoy life together for now. When it actually is time for me to be in a relationship, I'll know. I definitely do not have the will to be in a commitment right now; definitely not. Time, I believe I do, but I don't want to use that time for a specific someone yet. I'm not ready to sacrifice that.
<3, thanks buds!
